“I know you’re trying but I know you can do better.”

Have you ever heard that saying “it hit me like a stack of bricks”?

That was me this past Sunday at church.

During the service I was getting a little distracted by some factors in my life, questioning God why hasn’t my “next step” happened yet. Why haven’t I gotten my “big moment”?

I continued to argue in my mind that I have been working hard, keeping busy, and still trying to find time to hang out with my friends and stay involved with my church and life groups.

And then it was like God’s voice became audible. I asked God where my big break was… I’m trying so hard and He did respond.

“I know you’re trying, but I know that you can do better,” was His exact response and I was in shock.

It made me really evaluate my decisions and choices over these last few months. I kind of looked at God’s response through a flashback on how my old tennis coaches from college would instruct me.

Playing tennis in college was one of the most difficult but rewarded opportunities that I was ever given. Tennis requires a lot of agility and strength. One of the most common activities that you have to work on is your footwork with your groundstrokes.

My team would do this drill where we basically did mini suicides across the court X amount of times.

Again and Again.

Everyone would be exhausted and I would be super drained. After I made my round I would circle around back to the end of the line and prepare for my next turn. After completing so many rounds I felt like there was no way I could move my body that fast another time.

So I would slowly but surely continue moving. And a good portion of the time our coaches would say “let’s go… pick up the pace… keep moving!” And sometimes I would have the nerve to say, “I am trying”. And one time my coach responded, “I know you’re trying but I know you can do better.”

This concept has helped me grow more than just a student athlete but as a professional in my field and in my faith.

Sometimes I think we get a little blindsighted by the bigger picture that we don’t take enough time to focus on certain things that really matter. We focus too much on details that aren’t as important and we’re struggling to survive through the process rather than enjoying the journey and experiencing the moments that God intended to have specific impact.

Just like in practice, there will be moments where we feel like we can’t continue moving forward and we just want to take a seat. But those are the moments that help us continue to grow stronger for the days that we will need the strength for at most.

During this time God revealed to me that my big break may not be here yet, but it’s coming. A year ago I was in a Starbucks in Northeast Indiana jumping up and down with every possible person staring, and not caring because I just received my acceptance letter and offer to join the Walt Disney Company.

I moved across the country, met incredible people, have experienced opportunities that many don’t have the chance to in a lifetime, and found my calling with what I want to do with the rest of my life.

God knows my heart and He knows what I want to do with the rest of my life. He put those desires in my heart just like how He placed me in California. There is no way that I could have successfully done this on my own.

This next door may have not of been opened yet but the knob is slowly turning. I know that there is a purpose for every chapter that God begins and finishes for my life and I am still only on a page.

God created this chapter for me in California and He is going to continue working through me throughout this whole time until it’s completed.

Until the next opportunity that comes that is meant to happen I am going to take every big and small opportunity that the Lord puts in front of me and do it with all of my might all so that His name may be glorified. Whether this means to take out my headphones and start an intentional conversation with another coworker, holding the door open for a stranger when I’m in a hurry, or even sacrificing my time binge watching Netflix for going to In N Out with my life group- I’m going to start trying harder to show the love of Jesus wherever He brings me, especially in the waiting.

“And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.” Colossians 3:17

Until next time



Fearing the Unknown

Exactly a year ago today my life was about to undergo the most ultimate change that I have yet experienced.

On September 20th, 2017 I was sitting in a Starbucks in Indiana doing homework. I just started my masters program for my MBA and was getting easily distracted through social media. I recently graduated from my undergrad in May and all of my friends were already starting their first entry-level positions in schools, healthcare, and other corporations.

My dream had always been to move to California and work in the entertainment industry ever since I was a little girl. I was the one who wanted to be a singer, who worked on tv, and be in the hype of all things. I studied public relations and loved being in the pit of shooting off ideas left and right for the next campaign or project that we were about to work on. I loved the excitement and thrill that day of and live events would give me. Seeing the shining faces of guests and other leaders at the event would truly make me feel content that I was making a difference.

As I was scrolling through social media I found myself coming across one page in particular, The Disney College Program Spring 2018. I applied for this internship on the fly. I in no way thought that I would have a chance. Hundreds and thousands of applicants apply for this internship all across the world and the possibilities are endless once one begins this journey.

I clicked throughout the posts on that specific page and thought about how cool it must be to finally be accepted into this internship. I saw post after post seeing students get their acceptance letters and all I could think of was

“God, what about me?”

I wasn’t too sure what my next steps were after graduating from my undergrad and I thought that i literally applied for every job possible even ones that I could care less about. I would spend hours day and night applying for positions everywhere including Illinois and Indiana.

However, God made it very clear that I was not supposed to stay in the Midwest whether that meant staying in my college town or going back home to Indiana. It wasn’t meant to be.

At this time I wondered, what are the odds out of all of those applicants that they would pick me?

Honestly, I didn’t think I was too special compared to a lot of the other kids because many of them had done internships with the company before, have worked in entertainment, or just have really strong connections within the company.

I prayed for many nights. I prayed and told God that no matter where it was that He wanted to send me just to use me and make a difference in my life and the lives of others through this next opportunity.

I was tired of trying to make things work out for my own good. I wanted to make a difference and do more than just your typical 8-5 job. I wanted to be challenged, stretched, and to experience life. I wanted to take what I knew that I was good at and passionate about and use that to further the kingdom.

And I was.

I opened up my email and refreshed my inbox a couple of times

and there it was. 

I was officially accepted into the Disney College Program in Southern California.

I couldn’t believe my eyes.

It finally hit me that I was moving to Southern California in only a short matter of months.

My life was about to completely change.

And it did. 

From the time of transition, to the move, to getting to a new area my life completely changed and it felt like a never-ending roller coaster.

(And if you really knew me you would know that I really don’t do roller coasters that well).

I had my fair share of highs and lows.

I would question my purpose of being here.

I would question my strengths and abilities.

I would even question my faith and if the Lord was really looking out for me.

But then throughout this entire time of questioning, and worrying I realized one thing.  Although, I had no idea the answers were to my questions God did. And maybe I wasn’t ready to have all of the answers that I was searching for just yet. During this time I really questioned my identity and it make me question if I was cut off for the entertainment industry after all. It made me challenge my core values, my relationships, and even my personal life.

I loved the thrill that the transition gave me. The move, new experiences, meeting new people, and endless opportunities. And then I realized throughout this entire experience I forgot to invite God back into it. Therefore there was a pretty deep void in my life. I didn’t start going back to church actually until a few months ago.

I was so excited for this “new life” that I was about to experience that I forgot to take God with me. The replaced area of my life that I used to give complete control to God with fear and insecurities. I tried so hard to perfectly piece my life together and be picture perfect, just like what I wanted to see on TV. I didn’t want any possible problem to ruin it. I became so paranoid with trying to prevent anything from happening that I became extremely careful about every decision that I made including little ones.

I didn’t know why I was so scared of the worst thing to happen but then it hit me.

I was fearing the unknown.

I was afraid of the possibility of failure.

I was afraid of the possibility of disappointing others.

I was afraid of not meeting up to expectations made by myself or others.

I was just afraid. 

In the beginning I realized that God gave me an amazing opportunity to live my dream but He gave it to me through Him and I cut Him off.

When we replace God in our lives with temporary satisfaction we open ourselves up to fear, and disappointment.

And that’s exactly what I did.

For a good portion of this chapter… (It gets better I promise).

Thankfully, I serve a God who although has 99 sheep right where He wants them, He not only chases after the one that goes missing, He pursues them until they come home.

He pursues them even if they don’t pursue Him back.

I am that one sheep.

Even when I made poor choices and didn’t make the best decisions, He still continued to pursue me and be there for me when I didn’t take any consideration for Him.

When I was letting fear and the unknown control my life Jesus was  holding the door open since day 1 waiting for me to come home.

When I was falling and felt like I had no other place to go, He held out His hand for me to hold to know that I was wanted.

And when I felt I was alone He surrounded me around bodies of believers that continued to love and encourage me even in my lowest points.

This year has a been a roller coaster with its fair share of ups and downs but that doesn’t mean that I didn’t enjoy the ride.

I finished my internship with the Disney College Program last month and I have to say it was worth every moment. I have gained much patience, strength, and endurance. I have learned not to take things personally in this industry and how to have tough skin.

I am revealed everyday that I have a gift with relating to a diverse group of people and that’s not just because of my degree in communications (okay, maybe a little… Thanks Dr. Jay ;)).

I have learned that I am a talented and strong individual that was cut out for this industry and that no amount of negativity will make me backtrack like that again.

I know this because I hold onto the truth and proof that God is at work in my life. The moments where I have brought friends to church that haven’t been to one in years or at all, the conversations started that have helped others open up and discover who they were really created to be, and the moments I have seen where the ones I care about deeply have legitimate breakthroughs and begin to turn their lives around.

Upon the end of my internship I decided to continue living in Southern California and making my dream a reality shining the light of Christ in an industry that is in desperate need of a Savior. I have a huge passion for people, events, and media and it is my life goal to make the name of Jesus known and alive in the entertainment industry.

I am no longer afraid of the unknown but encouraged by the endless possibilities of where God can use me next. And I know this is just the beginning.

I want to give a huge thank you to all of those that have believed in me and have been praying for me since the very start.

Here’s to making a difference one day at a time,

and telling fear to go back to where it came from.

Here’s to living where the summer is endless, going to the beach everyday, and discovering just a little more everyday of this thing do we called life.

Love you all.


Brooke Allison



No Longer Afraid

I write this post out of the deepest sincerity of my heart.

I had a very difficult encounter with a family member about a week ago over a subject that has left a deep scar in my life and that took many years of healing.

Two years ago I served on my first mission trip to the Big Island, Hawaii and I learned about the importance of talking story. 

This is similar to what many of us would just call sharing our testimony in the church, or even just our life story.

I was extremely blessed to grow up in a home with both of my parents married, a roof over my head, and always having food on the table.

However, I did not live an easy childhood, but it was during this time of my life when I was able learn first hand what faith really meant.

I used to be so afraid to tell my story until about two years ago because although I was able to learn and grow from my past I knew that the scars were still there and there was not complete healing yet.

So here’s my story,

It all started when I was at a young age.

A family member in my life that should have been an impactful figure became my biggest nightmare.

This person became extremely abusive to my health physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually from about the age six until eighteen.

This person tormented my mind of what a certain type of role model in my life should have looked like and made me question daily my worth, my value, and even my life.

I would ask myself everyday what did I do wrong, why do I deserve this, and if God really loved me to place such a person in my life.

At an elementary age I remember kneeling by my bed at night crying and begging God to make it all stop and to take the situation away because I couldn’t handle it anymore.

I told Him if He really loved me He would make it all stop.

This person would manipulate my mind and make me think that everything that I would do was wrong.

Time passed along and I was finally going into high school.

I did whatever I could to fill this void in my life with other people to replace that feeling with whatever temporary satisfaction that I could even if they were not the healthiest of ways.

During this time I tried my very best to be the best me that I could because you can only do so much as a teenager, and at sixteen you’re also still a kid. There’s only so much that you can do.

I learned to grow up pretty fast and how to not depend on others as much as I could because I didn’t really know any other way. This person made me feel that because I couldn’t depend on them I had to become independent and only worry about myself for myself.

The worst part of it all I knew that I was suppose to love this person regardless because they were put in my life for a reason but they were not fulfilling such a crucial role that they were given to play in my life.

It was hard and it hurt.

I was extremely involved in school. I remember going to my tennis matches, my show choir competitions, school dances- the list keeps going- and thinking… where are you?

I would wear a “mask” at school through a smile and get distracted through busyness to not think about reality after the last bell would ring.

I would look at my friends and see their families cheering them on and I would get so jealous but more so hurt because I didn’t have that. I didn’t have that type of support in my life and it was missing in my life for so long.

I fought through pain and the tears throughout many years and told myself that it would only make myself a stronger and more independent person and will help me with who I want to become one day, but that didn’t mean that I wasn’t hurting.

I was longing to be loved and cared for by someone who I was supposed to call my father for the longest time and I wasn’t given that. I was given someone who was constantly angry, confused, anxious, and degrading.

I never felt like I was good enough and that I couldn’t satisfy his expectations of a child.

Throughout the years he was not found at a single athletic event, choir concert, prom court crowning, or even my high school graduation. That hurt.

I came to the conclusion that it wasn’t even their attitude, persona, or hurtful words that hurt me the most.

It was having the void of missing someone so vital during one of the highest peaks on my life and not being able to do anything about it because nothing was ever enough.

It a lot of time going to church camps, going away to a Christian university in another state, and learning about the importance of forgiveness and reconciliation to even understand a piece of why God wrote me the story that He wanted for me to have.

I had to surround myself around the right people that reminded me of my truth and worth and that lifted me up rather than adding fuel to the problem.

It didn’t happen overnight, but eventually I learned how to forgive my dad and how to love again.

I learned that no matter who comes my way, what situation I am given, or where I am found that I have a Heavenly Father that loves me SO much that He continued to pursue me, love me, and wait for me even when I was hurt and wanting nothing to do with Him.

I learned that He sent His Son, Jesus, to die for me so I didn’t have to hurt anymore or try to perfect because He is more than enough for me because He loves me that much,

Today, I firmly believe that I was given the childhood that I was given and the situations that I have experienced to be able to show others also how to experience God’s love.

I believe that I experienced the hurt and the past that I did learn how to love like Christ towards everyone, and no matter what a person does to me, or just in their life in general I am able to look at them through the eyes of Jesus and tell them

its okay.

Because there’s hope for them too.

God writes the stories that He gives us not to question our life purpose, but for His name to be made known through us and to give us a greater purpose than we can ever give ourselves.

God has amazing plans for each of our lives but we need to know how to follow them.

I didn’t want to share my story to request sympathy from anyone or to gossip about a past event but to encourage others not to be afraid to share their stories and what God has taught them through their hardships and battles.

If anything, I have learned that God has made me into a pretty strong person from what I have endured.

About a week ago another family member of mine specifically told me that I should be ashamed how feeling the way that I did because this past event sharing my story.

The worst part- they claimed to be from the Church.

Don’t you ever let someone make you feel ashamed for telling your story because God wrote you that story to reach others going through similar situations, and to give them hope through Him.

My story is why I am who I am today and God wrote it for me including every tear shed and every scar left behind.

I can’t change my past, but I can decide how I let it impact my future.

All I wanted was for my dad to be proud of me and to love me for being his daughter hoping that I would be enough.

Today, my relationship with my biological father is stronger than it has ever been. I may not have the best or any good childhood memories, but I have something worth so much more.

I have a relationship restored because of grace and freedom that God brought me through His Son.

I am able to believe that I have a good relationship with my dad and believe it.

He has a completely transformed heart.

He tells me that he loves me, that he’s proud of me, and he prays for me.

And I couldn’t thank God anymore because this was the biggest answered prayer that I could ever ask for.

Sure, I still have my scars.

But behind every scar is a story worth telling and a reminder of the strength that I had to endure it.

Sometimes the biggest smiles and most open arms are hiding the biggest pains internally. I know this because I struggled with this for over a decade. Don’t ever be afraid of sharing what God has done for you in your life including the trials and the turning points.

I hope this encourages you to not be afraid of telling your story to anyone including the hardest details that you want to forget because you never know who you could be helping going through the same thing.

My heart has a huge space for teens and specifically high school girls who are battling finding their self worth because of similar situations, and my hope is to be a light into their darkness relating to their stories. And being able to tell them that it gets better and that God has a plan.

Be slow to speak and quick to listen.

Listen to understand and not to speak.

We all have a story that is meant to be told and can reach others.

Tell your story, use your voice, and be that difference in some else’s life.


Brooke Allison


Just Getting By

I didn’t realize how long it had been since the last time I blogged until I remembered, I couldn’t even remember how long it had been since the last time I blogged.

About six months ago I moved to Southern California with high hopes, ambition, and eagerness to take on the world and this new stage of life. I was ready for the new experiences and change. However, I didn’t really think too much about the challenges.

I traveled quite some way to get here. Over the last four years I had been away at school in Chicagoland, but I grew up about four hours away in a very small town in northeast Indiana. I’m thankful to say that over my duration of time here I have had a lot of people that have walked into my life during my college years and adolescence come visit me because it was definitely needed.

It is a completely different lifestyle in California. I love it, but I have had so many days where I would just sit and question my identity and have to remind myself that my choices and mistakes don’t define me. I’ve had to redirect my focus many times because of distractions. I’ve had to remind myself that there was no way in the world that I would have been able to get here own my own, and that it was literally by God alone that made everything fall into place for me after graduating from Olivet.

One of the biggest struggles that I have had while being out here is being so far away from my family. This is more than likely a given especially for the other interns in my program too, but I feel like it’s different for me. When I was in my undergrad I was a student athlete so I hardly went home to visit during the school year, or the summer as it was. I was used to not being so close to home, but again this time has been different.

A week or two ago I was given notice that it was decided that my grandpa was going to discontinue chemotherapy treatments for his battle with leukemia. I was also updated that there had been broken relationships hindering the ones that I love, and the list continued to multiply.

If you really know me you would know that I love people, and I intensely love the people that are in my life. If you really knew me you’d also know that I’m very good at putting on a smile and powering through the pain and carrying the weight until reaches it’s threshold. This has made my adventure away from the ones that I love very difficult because I have been having the time of my life, and all that I could think about are the ones back home just trying to get by.

It sucks.

One of the sermons that I recently listened to was by a pastor from Hillsong. He talked about how sometimes we go through a season of hardship and then a season of waiting before we get to the promiseland. I know that there is a plan for my life and that God has a plan for the lives of those that I love, but it’s hard to believe that when you’re stuck in the waiting and searching for answers everywhere and just trying to distract yourself from the worry and anxiety momentarily.

This is where faith comes in.

Sometimes when we are carrying such a heavy weight all we can do is let go, be patient, and wait for God to do the rest. We aren’t called to take care of everything on our own. He always makes a way when there seems to be no way.

Until then, I’m going to continue to enjoy the opportunity that God has given me to grow and learn more about the person that He created me to be during this exciting life adventure in California and pray and trust that He will take care of my loved ones because I know that I can’t on my own.

I believe that He will take care of my grandpa and my family.

I believe that He will give me peace knowing that He has a pretty rad plan for my life.

I believe that although I don’t, He has perfect timing and that it will all work out in the end.

My heart is still heavy and the topics will continue to be pretty sensitive to me for awhile but I’m going to take courage because I know that Jesus is meeting me here in the waiting and He’s never failing.

I hope this encouraged you to not give up on trusting God in the waiting because He does have a plan for you. All you have to do is be still and let Him take control.

Until next time-


Brooke Allison


Stop doing what you should be doing.

It’s been well over a month since I’ve written anything.

These last four months in California have taught me so much about myself.

Something that I have learned recently is that I continue to ask myself

what should I do?


what am I supposed to do?

I firmly believe that we live in a culture that constantly tells us that we have to be something that we don’t have to be in order to happy or reach success.

I am extremely guilty when it comes to this topic.

We say- be yourself and don’t let anyone else tell you otherwise.

But do we really?

Over the last four years I went to a small Christian university that captivated my fellow student body and I in a bubble. And I have come to the conclusion that I actually really miss that bubble.

I miss knowing that there are many other peers of mine experiencing the same struggles that I am that are open to talk about it and listen.

I miss knowing that I have many leaders including faculty and staff, church members, spiritual life members, and friends that are older than me who were only moments away from me to help guide and direct me on the right path.

However, as much as I want it to be, the bubble isn’t the real world.

I have come to learn that the only way that other  young Christians can grow and succeed in life that have experienced, or are experiencing the same things as myself is to hang on tight to Jesus.

How do you do that?

Find their new church home, devote yourself to prayer, and really stick to the Word. Having a solid life group also is extremely important.

Personally, I thought I knew where I wanted to be in life after college and my internship but now I think that the Lord has other plans for me.

I let the thoughts of what I should be doing or who I should be completely consume me, and started finding value in areas of my life that are actually meaningless compared to what I actually deserve.

I had a good conversation with a friend and explained prior to what I felt was going on, and how I felt so confused and lost about where my life was going.

She asked me if I had prayed about it.

At point my prayer life honestly sucked.

I was not holding myself accountable, and just fell off the grid with my prayer life.

I excluded God from this area of my life even though it wasn’t intentional.

So as much as I wanted to ignore her question, I pondered it and realized that praying was exactly what I needed to do and ask for clarity.

Later that day God opened my eyes and asked me the simple question

Why are you settling? 

That simple question opened my eyes from the last month where I felt totally lost and misunderstood.

I let the thoughts of who I should be, where I should be doing, and where I should be going take over my life.

And it really hurt me.

Although, I serve a God who loves me so much that He never fails to remind me of my worth and what I deserve.

He tells me that He’s been there for me since the very start, and will be my biggest cheerleader every step of the way even when I feel like I have to fight these battles on my own.

He reminds me that His plans are far above my own and He has much more amazing plans for me than I can ever make for myself in a lifetime.

He reminds me that I don’t have to take my problems into my own hands alone, and I don’t have to settle for any kind of temporary satisfaction to forget about the present momentarily because He can take care of everything right now.

If you’re struggling to figure out what you’re doing wrong, or why your plans aren’t following through the way that you planned ask God why.

It’s okay to ask why when you don’t have all the answers yourself.

He will show you the way.

He’s already brought me so far, and I know He isn’t finished with me yet.

Don’t give up.

Keep pushing.

Keep praying.

Don’t lose hope.

You got this because He’s had you since the very beginning.


One Blink.

A little over three months ago I saw my life flash before my eyes.

It was a cold, but yet fun filled night with friends planned out in the city. Every good night has to come to an end sometime, right?

On our way home, my friends and I were driving down the freeway, and within a blink of an eye we were hit by a drunk driver.

I remember before we collided I had this strange feeling. I wasn’t scared and I wasn’t anxious. However, I knew something was coming. I looked to my right and I remember seeing the car, and then just knowing that we were going to get into a car accident before it even happened.

Shortly after this moment the car started to merge over from my side of the vehicle, and he clipped the front side of our car, leaving us stranded with a totalled vehicle on the side of the freeway.

It’s crazy to think about how fast it all happened- kind of like how it is in the movies.

You have that feeling that something is going to happen.

You see the vehicle right in front of your eyes.

And before you know it you’re getting hit in the face over 100 MPH by a very large bean bag (well, maybe a little bit more firm than a bean bag).

I felt like I was in a movie.

I had this strange and yet strong ring in my ear from the pressure from the airbags, and I smelled this weird smokey sensation.

I looked around to see if all my friends were okay, and thank the Lord we were.

That night we walked away we a totalled vehicle, but we also walked away with minor injuries, and lives waiting to be filled with more personal testimonies.

That night really put certain things in my life in perspective.

As I saw the other vehicle colliding with ours the only automatic response that my mind, body, and spirit had within me was to proclaim, “In the Name of Jesus.”

I was not the driver that night, and I had no power physically to move either vehicle. I didn’t know any other way to respond, or control the situation except to fully surrender my fear to God and take authority over enemy’s plans for our life that night.

The Lord has His mighty hands on us that night because the situation could have ended very poorly considering all of the factors, but Jesus had another plan. He loves us so much that He wanted to show us how much more life He wants for us to live through HIM and light this testimony for the world to see.

I have suffered with anxiety and panic attacks since I was about 18 years old. I believe that I have been fully delivered from those attacks since the moment I threw my anxiety pills in the trash after my mission trip last summer, and even in the moment when I should had felt anxious the most, the Lord brought me peace and confidence.

I had never felt so calm, bold, and courageous during a time of need like this in my entire life! That night the drunk driver drove away, we were left in the cold with a totalled vehicle, and a slightly bloody nose.

Earlier that day before I went out with my friends I was on my way to Starbucks. Before I got out of my car something drew my attention to my airbag caution label on my visor. I remember just staring at it thinking, why am I looking at this?

About ten minutes before the accident I had taken my seatbelt off to take off my coat. That night I walked away with a sensitive ear, and a few bruises but the timing that God had with that seatbelt saved my life.

My mom also told me earlier that day she saw my picture on our fridge at my parents house, and she said that I was really on her heart and she continued to pray for me throughout the day, specifically for protection.

I firmly believe that God sent this situation for a purpose. I believe that He was trying to teach me multiple lessons on this day. I believe that He was revealing to me that no matter what the situation is, and no matter how out of control things may seem, He will always find a way to rescue us because He has an amazing plan for each and every one of us, and He will continue to walk with us upon completion.

After that night I began to think of all my sins that I had made.

I thought of all the rude comments, or even gossip that I’ve said about others.

I thought of all of the bad choices that I made that were not very Christlike.

I thought of all of the times when I have tried to taken control of situations when they were out of my hands in the first place.

And every single time my mind wandered back into the past, Jesus brought me back to the present and reminded me that He is not a god of punishment and getting even when we have wronged HIm. He is not a god of compromise. And He is not a god of disownment.

He is a God of love, forgiveness, and grace. He is a God who restores, provides, heals, and supports. He wants us to come to Him for our every need and to take care of us.

He wants us to hand over our current situations, and surrender our control over the things that we can and cannot control, and realize that He is sovereign.

No matter our past, our choices, our mistakes, and even our future mistakes- He will always be there to rescue and restore us.

Romans 8:39 New International Version (NIV)

39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. 


It Never Gives Up

Today I attended a new church.

Last blog post I really pushed on the importance of taking Jesus with you everywhere you go, and why it’s extremely important to find your home church when you are in transitions of new chapters of life.

Today at church the pastor talked about getting more of Jesus.

Many of us have our own unique way that we are able to connect with Him, but it all comes down to our relationship with Him.

Every relationship has foundational needs. One of the most important foundational needs that every relationship has is communication. Our prime form of communication with Him is through prayer.

So many times followers of Christ question why they are not getting the answers that they are searching for, feel like they are stuck, or are overall disappointed with their current standing with their relationship with God because they don’t communicate.

It’s an easy thing to forget quite honestly. Personally, when life gets busy I forget to communicate regularly with those around me, and especially with the ones that I care for the most. I get too caught up into multi- tasking and saying that I will get back to them later that I put it off so far that its too far out of my reach, and I just forget.

We live in a generation that has become so dependent on themselves that we forget about including God in the most important part of our lives. We try to figure all of the answers out on our own, and get angry and frustrated because things aren’t going our ways.

But that’s just it.

Being a Christian does not mean that everything is going to go our way every single time- or anytime for that matter.

Being a Christian does not mean that we are going to have the answers for all of our questions and the solutions to solve all of our problems.

Being a Christian does not mean that we just post a status on Facebook thanking God for blessing us with an opportunity,  a job, or even a relationship and then look the other way when we are out of the spotlight and take all credit and forget about the one who gave it to us in the first place.

We were not created to have all the answers.

We were not created to solve all of our problems.

We were not created to create our own happiness.

We were created to love and to be loved. 

We were created in the image of God and with the minds of Christ.

We were created with a purpose and for a reason, but that purpose was not to be the ruler over our lives because we definitely can not handle it all by ourselves.

Today, I was convicted of this very same lesson.

I am guilty of trying to figure things out on my own and forget about including God in the difficult areas of my life.

I’m guilty of depending on my own understanding more than trusting on the Truth, God’s Word.

I’ m guilty for settling for second best because I am secretly impatient and hate waiting when I know that God is moving and I just need to be still.

Today was a huge reminder for me that I don’t have to do everything on my own. This is as constant and a daily weight that I struggle putting down everyday.

Personally, I need to communicate more and talk to God about my struggles, my needs, and even my heart’s desires.

I know that I can’t ultimately create my own happiness by myself without it crashing and burning in the end and I have to be patient and trust in the perfect plan that He has for me and my life.

Setting side that sacred time that you devote to Him is vital for the growth and future of your relationship with God.

Talk with Him.

Tell Him your biggest fears, the highlights of your day, and even all about that annoying coworker that you really struggle to love. He wants to hear all about it, and He wants to do everything He can to help.

Never question yourself why God wasn’t there because He was carrying you there every step of the way.

Matthew 7:8 New Living Translation (NLT)

For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened.

All you have to do is knock.




Take Him With You

One thing that I believe is extremely important for any Christian is to find solid accountability.

When I first moved to Southern California my top priorities were to make a lot of friends and just to get involved- like any other college kid I think I had what they call FOMO (Fear of Missing Out).

I’ve been in the area for about three weeks now and I am amazed of how empty I had been for so long. I had plenty of friends and I was going out and doing fun things every night, even after work.

However, something was missing.

Last week I went to my first small group since I left Chicagoland and what I felt that had been a closed off part of me had finally been opened again.

I let the fear of missing out consume me to the point where I had forgotten to incorporate the most important aspect of my life into this new chapter, Jesus.

It’s so true that when you leave a comfortable place, like for me, a small Christian university, that you’ve been at for so long it can be very easy to fall short with your faith.

I had been feeling a lot of unknowns and hesitations lately and I wasn’t entirely sure why and then it hit me.

I forgot to take Jesus with me.

I forgot to give Jesus full control over new part of my life, and He was the one that gave it to me in the first place.

It’s a common mistake for Christian to want to take the reins during a time like this- so exciting and new. But that’s when we get stuck, stressed, and empty.

Last week was a huge reminder that no matter how good I think I have things going for me, at the end of the day I have to give it back to the one that gave it to me in the first place because He holds the keys to everything. I just have to open the door.

I am so thankful for the followers of Jesus that have entered my life during this time to push and encourage me during this season of growth.

Never stop chasing Him, especially when you think that you have everything going for you. Because He will never fail you and He will never stop chasing after you.



Dreams do come true

Today I was in one of my official days of on the job training for my internship. Many are aware that I recently moved to California for this new and exciting opportunity, but I don’t think that I had emphasized it enough that I was interning at the happiest place on earth, for the Walt Disney Company.

During training today we discussed some of our favorite memories of Disney, and why we feel the way that we do. I explained to my fellow peers about how much I loved seeing the castle for the first time ever. My family wasn’t able to take my siblings and I to Disneyland, or Disney World when we were kids. However, the excitement that I had when I saw that castle for the first time was more than likely at the same level that I would of had 20 years ago if I had saw it then.

As young adults we are often told that we need to be the best, or be in this unbearable competition for success. But why is it that we are hardly told to chase are dreams anymore and to go after our heart’s deepest desires?

I have always been a huge Disney Princess fan. I love everything about Disney Princesses, but my favorite part about Disney Princesses would be the storyline and purpose that each of them hold to especially encourage and inspire young girls like myself since the very beginning.

One of my favorite Disney Princess stories is the Little Mermaid.

I would think that most of you reading this would probably have the general idea of who the Little Mermaid is and her story. If not I will highlight some main key points.

Ariel, the Little Mermaid, is an ambitious young girl who wants to adventure and experience life. She is incredibly fascinated by land and humans. However, she is a mermaid and this is where things get a little complicated.

Ariel lives in a completely different world than the one that she feels called to be in, and desires to grow in. She, like any other person, has her struggles. Her father does not approve, there’s a lot of unknowns which can be dangerous, and of course she found herself a cute boy that she can’t take her eyes off of.

Ariel has so many obstacles that try to get in her way, but she pushes through each and every one of them. Yes, she does fall a few times and make a couple bad decisions, but that’s life- trial and error.

We are NEVER going to know unless we try.

Ariel continued to persist in the hard times, and took down each obstacle as she came her way. In the end, Ariel not only was able to live the life that she had been dreaming of, but she also was able to take this incredible journey of life and grow. She went outside of her comfort zone, challenged her own strengths, and went beyond the expectations of what others set before her.

And she got her Prince ;).

It’s the stories like these that encourage and inspire me to not give up on my own dreams and continue to strive to exceed the expectations that are set before me, and to obtain my heart’s desires.

I am beyond grateful for the opportunity to be mentored under the company that has created not only these stories but inspirations that personally remind me to never give up on my dreams because they do come true.



A Whole New World

Within this last month I have made a lot of new changes and began such an exciting chapter in my life.

To highlight just a few of the changes,

I bought a new car.

I moved across the country.

I started my dream internship with the Walt Disney Company.

For about the last six months I had been praying like crazy specifically about this new chapter of life. After I graduated from my undergrad I knew that I wanted to do something fun and exciting. However, I wasn’t entirely sure what exactly it was that I was supposed to do. I saw a bunch of my friends applying to jobs and hoping to just get an entry level in their field. I saw many people try to stick around our college town and be comfortable. And I also saw people who just wanted to chase their dreams.

I fell into each of these categories. After graduation I went straight to the applications and started applying for all kinds of jobs just to get out of the midwest. I didn’t have all the right intentions to what I wanted to do, and I knew that. I remember that I had this one moment when I was again applying for jobs where I clearly heard God’s voice telling me to stop searching. 

That moment scared me quite a bit and I wasn’t sure what to think. I then started to ponder the thought if I was supposed to either go back to Indiana to my hometown, or stay in the area of my college town. I absolutely love the community where I grew over the last four years at my university. I loved the area, the people, and just the overall memories that I have. Again, after a lot of thought and prayer I did decide to stay in the Chicagoland area for a while because that was where I felt and heard God the most. I had an amazing church family, a solid friend group, and uplifting leaders in my life right in front of me.

So I decided to stay in the area for a little while, but in my heart I knew that there was something more that I needed to do. Towards the end of summer I applied to the Disney College Program in California with no intentions of thinking that I would ever get in. The California program is extremely difficult to get into, and I had never applied before. I had a good friend that previously did the program and got a lot out of it. And in the midst of all my job applications, this one happened to also make its way into my submitted applications list.

About a month later I was notified that I was accepted into the program under the department that I not only wanted that I truly want to grow in. I couldn’t believe my eyes that I was chosen over thousands of applicants to participate in the Disney College Program in California and I could not be any more ecstatic.

Disney has been a company that had always been near and dear to my heart, but I never had even imagined that I would ever be given the opportunity to work and be mentored by them. Currently, it has been about a week since I have arrived to Southern California and I have been in love with every piece of it since the very second that I have gotten here.

My overall dream is to work in Corporate Social Responsibility where I can show the world the importance of community and coming together for a bigger purpose. Words cannot explain the joy that I have for this opportunity to work for the company that believes that dreams do come true.

I am overwhelmed with thanksgiving for this incredible blessing that the Lord has given me.

And it’s only the beginning.

If I can encourage you about anything in regards to chasing your dreams and actually living them I would tell you three things:

  1. Don’t let anyone who didn’t go after their dreams talk you out of yours.
  2. It’s okay to be scared, but don’t let fear be an excuse. Chase your dreams scared until all the fear is gone.
  3. Never lose sight of the bigger picture. You were created for a purpose and all the desires that you have laid on your heart are important. Don’t forget that.

Here’s to my newest adventure and hopefully the next step to yours.