Have you ever heard that saying “it hit me like a stack of bricks”?
That was me this past Sunday at church.
During the service I was getting a little distracted by some factors in my life, questioning God why hasn’t my “next step” happened yet. Why haven’t I gotten my “big moment”?
I continued to argue in my mind that I have been working hard, keeping busy, and still trying to find time to hang out with my friends and stay involved with my church and life groups.
And then it was like God’s voice became audible. I asked God where my big break was… I’m trying so hard and He did respond.
“I know you’re trying, but I know that you can do better,” was His exact response and I was in shock.
It made me really evaluate my decisions and choices over these last few months. I kind of looked at God’s response through a flashback on how my old tennis coaches from college would instruct me.
Playing tennis in college was one of the most difficult but rewarded opportunities that I was ever given. Tennis requires a lot of agility and strength. One of the most common activities that you have to work on is your footwork with your groundstrokes.
My team would do this drill where we basically did mini suicides across the court X amount of times.
Again and Again.
Everyone would be exhausted and I would be super drained. After I made my round I would circle around back to the end of the line and prepare for my next turn. After completing so many rounds I felt like there was no way I could move my body that fast another time.
So I would slowly but surely continue moving. And a good portion of the time our coaches would say “let’s go… pick up the pace… keep moving!” And sometimes I would have the nerve to say, “I am trying”. And one time my coach responded, “I know you’re trying but I know you can do better.”
This concept has helped me grow more than just a student athlete but as a professional in my field and in my faith.
Sometimes I think we get a little blindsighted by the bigger picture that we don’t take enough time to focus on certain things that really matter. We focus too much on details that aren’t as important and we’re struggling to survive through the process rather than enjoying the journey and experiencing the moments that God intended to have specific impact.
Just like in practice, there will be moments where we feel like we can’t continue moving forward and we just want to take a seat. But those are the moments that help us continue to grow stronger for the days that we will need the strength for at most.
During this time God revealed to me that my big break may not be here yet, but it’s coming. A year ago I was in a Starbucks in Northeast Indiana jumping up and down with every possible person staring, and not caring because I just received my acceptance letter and offer to join the Walt Disney Company.
I moved across the country, met incredible people, have experienced opportunities that many don’t have the chance to in a lifetime, and found my calling with what I want to do with the rest of my life.
God knows my heart and He knows what I want to do with the rest of my life. He put those desires in my heart just like how He placed me in California. There is no way that I could have successfully done this on my own.
This next door may have not of been opened yet but the knob is slowly turning. I know that there is a purpose for every chapter that God begins and finishes for my life and I am still only on a page.
God created this chapter for me in California and He is going to continue working through me throughout this whole time until it’s completed.
Until the next opportunity that comes that is meant to happen I am going to take every big and small opportunity that the Lord puts in front of me and do it with all of my might all so that His name may be glorified. Whether this means to take out my headphones and start an intentional conversation with another coworker, holding the door open for a stranger when I’m in a hurry, or even sacrificing my time binge watching Netflix for going to In N Out with my life group- I’m going to start trying harder to show the love of Jesus wherever He brings me, especially in the waiting.
“And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.” Colossians 3:17
Until next time